Bleh..my smoking habits have gone to hell because I'm staying at home again. Smoked a whole pack yesterday and only half a stick the whole of today. Its so bad I'm going into nicotine withdrawal. Its like, I can only smoke when I go out, or whenever no one's around or when my whole family's asleep. But if I smoke when my whole family's asleep then I gotta spray the place with air freshener..but since I don't have any at the moment, I gotta use my deodorant (which I've found is quite effective for spotchecks). The prob is, if it was back in Perth, my room's pretty well aired out, but here..its kinda stuffy, and not half as airy. Bleh. Irritating. Heh, I smoked in my room the first night I was back because I simply couldn't take it anymore, and the next morning Mom barged into my room to wake me up (I'd forgotten to lock the door), and immediately asked me if I'd been smoking. In my half asleep state, the best excuse I could cook up was that I'd bought this crappy new incense from the 2 dollar shop and burned it last night (she knows I like incense n scented candles n stuff..cos its the only way I can get rid of the 'stuffy' smell in my room..blek). I mean, the smell was so strong that even I could smell it the moment I woke up. Oh well, whatever it is, she bought the excuse, and even repeated it to my aunt later that day. Rofl. I should be in advertising man...hahhahahhaa.

Been doing nothing but playing games on my comp and goin out with old friends for the past couple of days. Havent felt like blogging or goin online very much...just wanted to either get out of the house or away from the family by immersing myself in my games. Sigh. I thought coming home would be fun...well it is..but staying at home is a whole nuther story.

Oscar's been going overboard with her 'wanting me back' and 'missing me so much'. I know she's probably gonna read this, but I gotta tell her somehow, and talking to her about it can drive me up the wall. What she really needs to do is lighten up a lil..or a lot actually. Her antics are just driving me further away. Sheesh. I mean like, to me, her behaviour right now is absolutely obedient to me..she listens to everything I say, does everything I tell her to do, bla bla bla. Seriously, if I really wanted a slave or Indonesian maid for my gf, then I'd go get one. Yeah I know, if you look at it from the other side of the story its like she's just doing everything she can in her power to get me back. She's changed for me (apparently for the better), and she'll become whatever I want her to become. Geez, what am I, a slave driver? A dominatrix? I don't get off on that..not at all. It sorta disgusts me. Right now I just wanna be friends because ..sheeit if she'd been like this before the 1st time we got together, hell, I wouldn't have gotten with her at all! Its like, she has no personality when she's around me besides the 'I desperately want you back' type. I can only stand so much of it. Oscar, if you're readin this, please listen to Irene's advice...its alot truer and better than you think it is. I was talkin to her yesterday and even I agreed with her. *Rolls eyes

Damn...I'm hungry..been eatin alot today...boy do I have an appetite! But no hot food now :( I got some instant noodles that I brought back from Perth (I knew I'd need 'em, since every other form of instant noodle in my house is EXPIRED...sheesh.), but Mom's sleeping on the couch tonite (she wuz too lazy to wash up and get her ass to bed, rofl). So if I use the microwave (the stove's filled with pots and pans..duh), the beeping would wake her up, and she'd nag me summore about how much I'm eating, how fat I am, blah blah blah...when actually I'm NOT fat. I even lost a few pounds (not alot) from the last time she saw me before I left for Perth. But for some reason, the fact that I'm NOT fat won't stick in her head. In fact, I don't think its ever gotten into her head. She's been on my case about it since I was a kid...sheesh. She's always finding new things to crap about my weight...I think its time I did some payback..I've noticed that her pelvis (for some weird reason), has gotten bigger (its quite noticable when you stand beside her cuz she likes to tuck her blouse into her jeans)..muahahah...now every time she comments about my weight or my tummy, I'll comment about her pelvis..hmm...what CAN I comment about pelvises? *scratches head* Any ideas? :P

Shit..I can't take it anymore..I'm off to make some Indo Mee and then I'm off to smoke, and then bed. Mmmm....foood.....

[+] Older, not much wiser. 12:32 PM